I mentioned in my pilot post that I’ve been considering starting a blog for quite some time, yet my perfectionist qualities have kept me from actually getting started. In chemistry, a catalyst is one substance that makes a chemical reaction speed up. It only takes one catalyst to accomplish the job. God has blessed me with about 5 catalysts to get me going on this project. Most of them happened just last week. Today I share the biggest one.
One week ago I finished reading the book “Choosing to See” by Mary Beth Chapman. This is not just another book. It is, as my mom-in-love put it, a game changer. There is so much I could say about this book, but for now I focus on how it has been a catalyst for me. Mary Beth takes you on a journey through tragedy and grief and bears honestly how hard it is. Yet, even through all the ugliness that she feels, she shares how she still chooses to “SEE” and honor God. Her courage to share her story has given me courage to start sharing mine.
I don’t begin to claim as profound a story as her, but I do believe that God has entrusted each of us with a journey. He wants us to use our journeys to point others to Him. I have from time to time in my life struggled with depression. I was very ashamed of this fact, until I read “Choosing to SEE”. God used Mary Beth to show me that it isn’t just about how I feel. God is interested in what I do with those feelings. Will I still praise Him when I don’t even want to lift my head out of bed? Will I still point others to Him when I don’t understand why He has chosen to allow something hard happen in my life? I pray that the answer to those two questions will always be “yes”. I also pray for continued courage to “steward the story” He has given me in such a way that God is made famous.